i can’t seem to get myself up off the couch to go out and be sociable. and it’s not even that social — just some friends, a bonfire and then a balldrop in Pawnee.
i know it’ll be fine but man, i just. i really do not like NYE. it’s like every reminder of how much i have not accomplished in the past year and how i’m still very much alone. i can’t think of a single happy NYE i’ve had since i was really young and it was a huge family event.
i think my biggest wish for 2012 is to stop being so insignificant. both to myself and other people. my second biggest wish is to get over this writer’s block and knock out an awesome book.