just pondering
i feel like i’ve got four different personalities — RL, facebook, twitter/tumblr, LJ.
i always wonder how i seem to people in each outlet. i know that the more public the venue, the more guarded i am. which i’m sure most people are. but i’m very curious as to the perception that folks have of me, as i think i tend to put off to the world that i’m a giddy, geeky person.
there was so much in Rob Delaney’s depression post that resonated with me, but the thing that resonates with me right now is: “If you know me personally, all this information may surprise you, as I think I generally have a pretty sunny demeanor.”
i think i do as well. mostly because of other people and how much i want them to know how great they are, how special they are. i enjoy celebrating other people, encouraging them. i don’t often talk about myself and i very rarely let anyone know what’s in my head. which is all my doing. so i keep weaving these personalities — all legitimate parts of me — into this little persona that i wish i was more like.