mtv lifer writing a Joss Whedon biography to come out in 2013. i watch a lot of television. a lot. and i talk about fandom and television in general lot. I have three-week crushes.
Week One: Ridiculous giddy infatuation. Head-spinny, hopeful happiness.
Week Two: Crash hard into depression and tears. Sad that said crush is not interested in me.
Week Three: Acceptance. Back to a slight giddyness of a crush but nothing like week one, and with absolutely no expectation. It’s usually over by the end of week three.
I just realized that I’ve optimized my time and have condensed my three-week crushes into one week. The past three days, I’ve been all sorts of giddy and hopeful. This morning, I woke up and realized how unlikely this whole thing is and have fallen into the first of what will probably be three days of depression. Hopefully I’ll be over it all shortly.
Of course, I never tell the object of said crush their role in my whirlwind of madness. What would be the point in that?
