All day long I keep catching myself in mirrors, with the immediate thought that I look really pretty.
It’s a very odd feeling.
Love that serene look on your face while getting tattooed. Thats a great pic of you.
i’ve learned that the key to getting through a tattoo is xanax + painkiller. i’d even say that the xanax is more important because it combats your body’s natural fight or flight reaction, that crazy surge of adrenaline that kicks in for a good 15 or so minutes when a needle keeps puncturing your skin. even with my low pain-threshold, that part is always the worst for me.
(i did not have the forethought to take a xanax when i got the traditional bamboo tattoo in koh phi phi. between the adrenaline, the day spent on a boat in rocky water and laying on my stomach, i got super nauseous and was most decidedly not serene ;))
The Doctor: I just want you to know, there are worlds out there, safe in the sky because of her. That there are people living in the light, and singing songs of Donna Noble, a thousand, million light years away. They will never forget her, while she can never remember. And for one moment… one shining moment… she was the most important woman in the whole wide universe.
i’m working on my novel at the moment, so naturally i’m checking tumblr
i literally just thought “i’ve written 5 pages in the book tonight but i haven’t written on the topics i NEED to write.” and decided to take a break, quickly check FB and tumblr. this was the first post on my dash.
emptystreetriot replied to your photo: There’s money in the banana stand, people. I don’t…
You look super-cute! Love the bird blouse and the blue hair. Shall focus on that instead of the massive jealousy.
judygrimes replied to your photo: There’s money in the banana stand, people. I don’t…
everything about this is amazing esp that your hair matches your shirt
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The banana stand! Your hair! I love everything about this.
Awww… thanks ladies!
thank goodness i recently did my hair because it had been a while and it was all sorts of faded, dingy and grey. i didn’t make any plans to match (although it apparently matched my dress on friday as well), and i didn’t even know that we were going, much less properly prepped for a photoshoot until 5 minutes before we left :)
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My jealousy knows no bounds. Plus, I love your hair color and your lipstick (please share the lipstick).
it is a great lipstick! i actually get a lot of compliments on that lipstick when people see it in photos.
It’s Make Up For Ever — Rouge Artist Intense #21, Pearly Bright Red. The color on the site doesn’t do it justice at all. It’s a great red w/gold specks.
There’s money in the banana stand, people.
I don’t always go outside into actual sunshine during the work day, but when i do, it’s to celebrate a TV show.
(also, i should not have my picture taken when i’m running on no sleep and a lot of mental exhaustion.)
at the risk of sounding offensive,
why is everyone depressed these days? When I was younger no one ever talked about being depressed, and not many people seemed that depressed, It has always been a thing for sure but it was not nearly as ubiquitous as it is these days. now it seems to be more common among young people than not-being-depressed is.
has it always been that way, but people didn’t understand it/talk about it? Have people always been depressed but didn’t have a forum like the internet to discuss it? Are some people diagnosing themselves with “depression” when it may be something else? Did something change in society that is causing more people to be depressed? Is there something in the food? Or is it one of those things where I am conflating what it’s like on the internet to what it’s like IRL?
I think there are a lot of things going on — on one side, people say “I’m so depressed” when they’re upset about a situation, which can often be more aptly described as “sad.” “I’m so sad that my favorite restaurant closed” or “I’m so sad that my mom won’t let me go to XX.” I don’t doubt that the feelings are truly painful and full of disappointment, but I don’t think they are “proper depression.”
There is still a huge stigma on mental illness, especially when talking about it in person. If you’ve never had to deal with it, then it’d hard to understand the pain and frustration when people say to you “what’s wrong with you? why don’t you just choose to be happy?” or “so many people have it worse than you, what do you have to complain about?” And when you’re being told that you have absolutely no reason to feel this overwhelming, suffocating depression because your life isn’t “as bad” as someone else’s then you stop talking about it and feel even worse and it spirals down.
Then you see someone talking about their own struggles online. And you realize that you’re not alone and that if you say, “hey, me too” in a conversation about depression, people aren’t going to jump down your throat and tell you that you have no right to complain or feel the way that you do. So you go from “hey, me too” into a slightly more detailed explanation of how you’re feeling and maybe someone else says “me too” and you feel even more understood and less-alone.
It’s much easier to do it online because it’s far less intimidating — you don’t risk your family and friends telling you that you are making things up for attention, nor do you have to deal with their personal biases when it comes to your feelings. It’s a relatively safe space to put your story out there — especially when it can be anonymous like on tumblr — to test the waters and hopefully find the resources to get help.
While it breaks my heart to see someone else go through this, I so wish that I have had this article to show people for the past 25 years. I’m sure that they’d ignore it and continue to feed me the bs that the fish are alive and not give up hope that they’d come back one day, but at least when i was/am drowning in the utter loneliness and desperation to be heard, I’d know that someone else out there truly understood.
Allie does an amazing of describing depression — at least the kind that I’ve dealt with for most of my life. And she also explains what it’s like to be suicidal. i know that it’s a difficult conversation to have, especially when people don’t understand how one could feel that way but she nailed it with her explanation of coming to certain realizations and then being in a position to “comfort” other people when you try to share what you are feeling with them.
And the part where her dog looks at her and she wishes that nothing else loved her so that she wouldn’t feel obligated to keep on existing? That is what I have gone through countless times — my one cat loves me like no one else ever has in my entire life, and like no one else ever will. Knowing that she would not understand and feel alone is usually the only thing that keeps me here when my life and future seems like such a pointless waste.
Pilot. I knew someone who tried to watch Buffy with S2. I was all NOOOOOO! GO BACK AND WATCH S1!
Um I would suggest maybe the first episode cuz its the first episode and stuff
Maybe Im weird, but I like to start at the beginning when introducing someone to a show. So, episode one.
In general, I think that starting with the pilot of any show makes sense. But with some series, especially ones that run several seasons long and feature their own mythology, newcomers can feel overwhelmed and potentially turned off by the idea of investing that much time and emotion.
I think of Gateway Episodes as the thing you show someone who is on the fence about a series, not someone who is super excited to start watching it. Which is why I feel that the mythology-lite episodes, or episodes that don’t hinge on a character’s history are best.
I thought about “Halloween,” but it’s so much stronger to get the effect of the Princess of Buffonia when you know Buffy and Angel’s history, and her own self-doubt around their relationship. “Band Candy” is one of my fun favorites, but you need to know the characters to fully enjoy the way they’re all upended — although the hotness of Ripper needs no explanation.
I have several loose-leaf strainers but what i love about these personal brewers is that they’re so portable. I kept mine in the office — i used to fill it from the hot water tap in our pantry then walk back to my office and not worry about it spilling. And I can’t stress enough how fabulous it is for making iced tea — just put 2 teabags in (i just used lipton black tea, or pg tips if i had it), let it steep off to the side and pour it over a huge tumbler of ice, adding more and more as needed.