mtv lifer writing a Joss Whedon biography to come out in 2014.
i watch a lot of television. a lot.
and i talk about fandom and television in general a lot.
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(not as much lately)


ballroompink said: This was on Netflix streaming at one point.

yes! i watched it like five times while it was up.

but i absolutely still have my vhs of it that my sisters and i recorded off of tv when we were kids because, JAKE RYAN. 

we were all in love with jake ryan. and also, obsessed with the movie.

Sixteen Candles is the first movie I watched so many times that I memorized it. It’s also the first movie in which I learned that a films could have alternate versions, as the version my cousin in Pittsburgh had on tape had different music than my own. 

I bought the script a few years ago and when I read it, I also learned the importance of editing and revisions. Which, of course, I knew about, but there’s something about reading an earlier draft of a movie I know inside and out — seeing the much longer Ginny storyline that got cut — to understand how i must try to stop comparing my unpolished work to someone’s final version.

One of my favourite games is walking down the Street, finding one beautiful thing about every single person.

Dita van Teese (via dita-van-teese)

For the past couple of weeks, I’ve made a conscious effort to look at each person I passed and think, “This person is very much loved by someone.” (An idea sparked many moons ago by the Tomyam Pladib” Everyone Likes Someone as You Like Someone exhibit in Bangkok.) I’m not sure if it’s changed me in any way, but it’s been a much nicer way to approach the world.

Just realized that I lost a follower, most likely due to my unhappiness with the Parks finale and the show in general. Which I understand — I was never a huge TWOP recap fan because it all felt so negative, and I’ve stopped following people on here because all they did was complain constantly about a show every week. I’d rather spend my time doing other things than hate-watching.

That being said, I’ve always said that being a fan doesn’t mean that you have love everything that someone/something does unconditionally. Usually it’s because you love a show so much that you can look at it critically, and seeing the flaws is just as important as seeing the beauty. 

I said a couple of weeks ago that I’m a big believer in “trust the tale, not the teller,” but I don’t trust the show at all. And the whole tone of the Parks and Rec time jump is what put me off. It looked different and it felt different, but nothing about those differences felt earned. I have no problem with resets in a TV show (I loved the Felicity spell plot line that created an AU by rescripting the final season of the show), but I find it hard to jump on board when they drastically change the tone and idea of a show without leading their audience into it with a plausible path.

(and not that anyone needs my permission, but just wanted to say to feel free to drop me if you’re bothered by my lack of Parks love. i don’t see my feelings changing any time soon.)

clubgetright replied to your post “in happier news… i’ve been rewatching “The Closer.”  I so love Brenda…”

I used to love The Closer so so hard… I will definitely have to schedule a re-watch!

It really stands up so far. I’m well into S3 and there’s so many little things that I’d forgotten, and I’m really impressed at how deftly they showed Brenda’s character soften and become a leader instead of the initial dictator position she was used to holding, and expected to be, when she arrived in Priority Homicide. And I love how utterly confident she is in herself and her abilities.

princessgeorge replied to your post “in happier news… i’ve been rewatching “The Closer.”  I so love Brenda…”

I loved that relationship a whole lot too. Really great.

They’re SO SO wonderful to watch. I like Fritz so much, and how he’s both dependable and completely open with his feelings both in love and frustration/anger. And how he makes Brenda, who constantly has 80 million possibilities running through her brain as she tries to sort out which one is correct and key to solving a murder, he makes her focus on the issue at hand and continually pushes her to declare her desires and feelings when all of her training has shown her how to “win” by perceiving everything and taking herself out of the equation. 

Like I said, I’m only into season three but I’m falling in love with them all over again :)

in happier news… i’ve been rewatching “The Closer.” 

I so love Brenda and Fritz’s relationship. I love the way they developed the characters from their courtship through their marriage, with big problems and small, and very much demonstrating the idea that marriage is often choosing to love someone over and over again.

I would like that, yes. 

princessgeorge replied to your post “ugh, yesterday kicked my ass. actually, the whole week kicked my ass….”

They’re sort of adjacent to a lot of interesting questions about family/career but aren’t taking them on and don’t seem likely to. Which is a missed opportunity.

That’s a fantastic point. Plotwise, this is the second “oops” pregnancy — not just in the series, but in this season. They did “my life is empty/worthless with a baby” with Ann. Considering how much of the series is about Leslie and her career and ambitions, I would have much preferred them asking those questions instead of it just being a repeat of “oops” and “our lives are worthless without babies!” 

ugh, yesterday kicked my ass. actually, the whole week kicked my ass. yesterday just pushed me over. i’ll catch up on life… eventually.

princessgeorge replied to your post “my not surprising unpopular parks & rec opinion [[MOR] i haven’t…”

I’m about the same - I’ll watch but I’ll let it pile up, and it’s just nowhere near as good as it used to be. Which still makes it an OK show. But I’m not really invested. (Aside: I need to talk to you abt Fleuvogs, will msg you!)

I feel the way I did about HIMYM — i kept watching although i didn’t really care about anyone anymore. It wasn’t until Barney’s manipulation of Robin, where he broke her down again and again, was brushed away with “oh, but it’s okay because he proposed and isn’t that the most romantic thing ever?!?” that i was so angry that I gave it up. 

I’m not angry with Parks, just disappointed. I just checked my TIVO and realized that i missed even more than I thought, and I have very little interest in checking them out. That makes me sad — I miss the excited anticipation, the ache I had for everything to come in those 30 minutes. I’m sad that at 10pm on a Thursday, i realize that I’d forgotten that Parks was even on that night.

slackmistress replied to your post “my not surprising unpopular parks & rec opinion [[MOR] i haven’t…”

I feel like it’s become about the situations and not about the characters. (I feel the same way about Community, too) That always ruins it for me.

From the Parks season premiere, I was disappointed in how the writers seemed to forget who their characters were — well, aside from RON BEING ALL-KNOWING SAGE. And with forgetting who their characters are, their character arcs and paths feel patched together rather than the deliberate and lovely arcs they’d had in seasons earlier. I agree, we don’t need wacky situations — the show handled wacky in the most entertaining and engaging way when it was placed in relatable situations. 

(Aside from the premiere, I haven’t seen Community this season, but i can see that happening.)

rikyl replied to your post “my not surprising unpopular parks & rec opinion [[MOR] i haven’t…”

That’s too bad but understandable. I don’t really trust this show like I used to, in regards to how they’re going to handle this.

I’m a big believer in “trust the tale, not the teller,” but I don’t trust the show at all. I honestly feel like the endgame is now “hey, wasn’t it funny that i wanted to be President? That was so dumb of me — HAVING BABIES IS WAY MORE IMPORTANT!” We’ve already seen them spend two seasons explaining why Ann and Chris were a bad match only to turn around and say “HEY! BABIES ARE MORE IMPORTANT THAN A COMPATIBLE RELATIONSHIP! EVERYONE NEEDS TO HAVE BABIES!”

And with Diane getting pregnant, that’s three pregnancies in one season. Is it lazy storytelling or a deliberate message that the only important thing in life is to have babies? I’m just not interested in following the Ann and Leslie sharing their pregnancy/labor/child-rearing adventures. 

Part of why I’m so disappointed in that is because the show did such a wonderful job of illustrating the idea of making a family out of your friends, and now it seems to be saying that kind of family is nothing and worthless compared to the one you procreate. 

diaphenia replied to your post “my not surprising unpopular parks & rec opinion [[MOR] i haven’t…”

Fair point

I was so excited to have an awesome lady who loved her life, her husband, her relationships and was unapologetically ambitious in her career. Even if they don’t decide to make Leslie give up on her grand-scale political ambitions, they will inevitably be weighed against the “can she have it all?” question that is never, ever posed to men. 

I completely respect that Schur, Poehler et al have the right to guide their series the way they want, but I don’t know if it’s something that interested in joining along anymore. 

random thought for today:

I was informed that someone didn’t recognize me right away because my hair was wet and looked dark. They knew me as the girl with the blue hair. (Said person only sees me a couple of times a year, so that’s pretty fair — i’m always surprised when anyone remembers me at all.)

I wonder if there’s more people who think of me as “the girl with the blue hair.” it’s funny to me because while i *know* my hair is blue, i never think about it until i see my silver-grey roots coming in.

(and it’s far more preferable to being recognized for my lisp. weeks before learning my name, the boy i dated in college referred to me as “the cute girl with the lisp.”)

I’m more than a little tipsy off one beer and a couple of hours with old coworkers. It’s the lightest I’ve felt in many days, both physically and mentally. The next couple of hours on the journey home will sober me up and I wonder what level of gravity will find me then.


at the risk of sounding offensive,

why is everyone depressed these days? When I was younger no one ever talked about being depressed, and not many people seemed that depressed, It has always been a thing for sure but it was not nearly as ubiquitous as it is these days. now it seems to be more common among young people than not-being-depressed is.

has it always been that way, but people didn’t understand it/talk about it? Have people always been depressed but didn’t have a forum like the internet to discuss it? Are some people diagnosing themselves with “depression” when it may be something else? Did something change in society that is causing more people to be depressed? Is there something in the food? Or is it one of those things where I am conflating what it’s like on the internet to what it’s like IRL?

honest question

I think there are a lot of things going on — on one side, people say “I’m so depressed” when they’re upset about a situation, which can often be more aptly described as “sad.” “I’m so sad that my favorite restaurant closed” or “I’m so sad that my mom won’t let me go to XX.” I don’t doubt that the feelings are truly painful and full of disappointment, but I don’t think they are “proper depression.”

There is still a huge stigma on mental illness, especially when talking about it in person. If you’ve never had to deal with it, then it’d hard to understand the pain and frustration when people say to you “what’s wrong with you? why don’t you just choose to be happy?” or “so many people have it worse than you, what do you have to complain about?” And when you’re being told that you have absolutely no reason to feel this overwhelming, suffocating depression because your life isn’t “as bad” as someone else’s then you stop talking about it and feel even worse and it spirals down. 

Then you see someone talking about their own struggles online. And you realize that you’re not alone and that if you say, “hey, me too” in a conversation about depression, people aren’t going to jump down your throat and tell you that you have no right to complain or feel the way that you do. So you go from “hey, me too” into a slightly more detailed explanation of how you’re feeling and maybe someone else says “me too” and you feel even more understood and less-alone.

It’s much easier to do it online because it’s far less intimidating — you don’t risk your family and friends telling you that you are making things up for attention, nor do you have to deal with their personal biases when it comes to your feelings. It’s a relatively safe space to put your story out there — especially when it can be anonymous like on tumblr — to test the waters and hopefully find the resources to get help.